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Last week I was so motivated, but then Monday Kevin and I argued and he's been snippy with me, which has kind of put me in a funk. I've been having some life-assessment time, and probably some post-Valentines blues. I was disappointed about Monday and the blood donation thing and secretly a little disappointed because Kevin did nothing for Valentines. I tried not to be, and I tried not to expect it. He's been very adamant that he doesn't celebrate it, and we've been together for six years but there's still some girly side of me that was hoping that there would be a gesture. I'm trying to not get disappointed when I don't receive back, though. I'm not giving to receive.

Yesterday, feeling quite funkish I went to Beer Club. I was alone in my office all day and had no opportunity to give. The only thing that I came up with was sending my former boss who's running for office (primary election was yesterday) a little encouraging text message to let him know I was thinking of him.…

Friday night we went to dinner with our friends. I had put the cash from my consulting gig away for groceries, but I knew Kevin was broke, so I slipped him some and told him to leave the tip for the dinner (the place was NOT cheap and our friends were treating us). We also decided to give a tip to the parking lot attendant who was getting yelled at by some angry customer. It was just a few bucks but then on the way out he beamed and waved and told us to have a great night. I felt good about us leaving the tip too. The dinner was great, and they seemed pleased that we made the gesture.

Saturday my main focus was on getting my house all cleaned. I tried to not be begrudging about it (I backslide a few times) and look at it as a gift to Kevin, the kitties and dog. That helped and made me feel a bit more positive and enthusiastic about the cleaning. That evening we took a pizza over to our friends, and some beer. Kevin C. (our friend) was just in a bad work-related accident and…

So, after posting yesterday, my boyfriend called and said he was going to stop with his friend Sam for one or two after work. I was feeling disappointed about it, and kind of got mopey. I was like, "Well, it's your job to walk the dog when you get home." He protested and then eventually conceded but I could tell he was not happy about it (our deal is that I do the morning walk, he does the evening walk).

I got home and was feeling tired and sort of blah. Made dinner, ate and then suddenly felt a bit better. I decided that rather than turn on the tv and veg, I'd just walk the dog for him. So I took the dog on a very cold little walk, but we made it. I got home and sent Kev a text that said, "Walked Frank for you. :)"

He wrote back, "You RULE!!" This made me smile, and feel pretty good because he's not a very expressive guy. He's more about doing stuff (changing the oil in the car, shoveling snow, fixing stuff) than gushy-lovey stuff. When he got home he was in a good…

My coworker thanked me for the E-card and then joked around a bit on the phone again, and said it made her laugh. Today when I talked to her she seemed more open and friendly. So, that was pretty cool.

I decided that for Monday I would have my Valentine's gift be to go give blood. This is something that I put off all the time. I used to do it regularly but I often brush off the calls from the Blood Center and just ignore them. It's been over a year since I've donated. As I was on the site I saw that they need platelets. This takes longer and is kind of uncomfortable, but with my blood type there's a need. So I asked for a longer lunch on Monday and decided to do it.

Last night I invited Kevin's cousin, our dog walker, Dan to stay for dinner. After he didn't take Frankie out on Monday and I was upset about him getting sick, I decided that doing something nice for Dan would be a good way to let go of my frustration with him. He hung out with me while I cooked and we…