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Getting ready for my 29 days of giving.

Perfect timing.... November 27 is my birthday and 29 days later is Christmas! I'm so grateful that i have just come across this site. Tomorrow, my birthday and the first day of giving, i will be going to the hospital for a couple tests - a brain MRI and a peripheral nerve-ending test. Current "diagnosis" is idiopathic peripheral neuropathy, which i simply translate into mysterious persistent peripheral numbness. Doctors don't know why it's there, and neither do i, although i have my hunches and hypotheses...
Hopefully, it will be a reversible condition via shiatsu sessions and improved lifestyle habits, particularly eating habits. And, needless to say, the practice of giving, purification, positive thinking, loving, and compassion. Somewhere on the internet i read about individuals suffering from "idiopathic peripheral neuropathy" struggling with a range of problems, spanning varying degrees of pain to impaired functional ability in their limbs and/or organs. Worst case scenario is death.
Another possibility is being diagnosed with some kind of rare neurological disease, for which i have yet to explore the possibilities. But the initial tests have already ruled out diabetes and some kind of inflammatory disease as culprit.
So what am i to think?
I'm thinking about stories. About writing my own script.

Tomorrow i will go to the hospital, cooperate with the test-taking process and then have a conversation with the doctor. He will tell me that the tests were unable to find any abnormalities in my brain and with my nervous system. He will apologize and tell me that i fall into that nebulous "idiopathic peripheral neuropathy" category. Who knows what he will then say! Perhaps he will then advise me to return if my symptoms get worse. Perhaps he will prescribe medication. But it doesn't matter. I will be free from the rare-neurological disease anxiety.

I will come home and enjoy my 29 days of giving, thoroughly. I will continue shiatsu, cooking for myself, taking ofuro several evenings a week, and overall cultivate peacefulness in my life. And gradually, my numbness will diminish and disappear entirely. I may pay a visit to a shrine or temple to give my healing process a boost : ) A mini-retreat into the countryside for several days would be wonderful!
And in the process, i will reconnect and deepen my relationship with my own body, with my self, with dance. With the sacredness of life. I will do this via a combination of prayer, meditation, pranayama, dance and yoga. I have all the means necessary and more. It is an issue of commitment.

Here we go!

P.S.
When i initially came across this site i got so excited about it i immediately decided to give it a go and began writing down giving ideas. In the middle of my brainstorming session, i got a beautiful email from a friend of mine. It is a very precious gift to me... one of the most precious gifts i've gotten in my life. And i had not even begun my 29 days yet!