Happiness is a cup of mocha and a really good book =)

Ive been thinking about what to do from my 7th gift, as some of you might have read through my previous post. I'm realizing that I'm trying to find a balance between spirituality, and living in the present here on earth. I have always been trying for what works best for me, spiritual wise. It's strange though, or maybe not, that one set religion has never fully satisfied me.

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Well, I'm back...again. Right...hehee..so I haven't continued the challenge in a long while..I suppose the cliche of " I don't have enought time" will cut it. However, depite my absense, I will not use any more excusees for my blasphemy on not going through with this challenge. I wasnt being too serious there, but I just don't know what kind of gifts to give out, meanwhile I feel a bit empty inside. I mean I'm not miserable, but I would like to be more happy. Can anyone out there tell me…

          Last night, I was feeling very sad. For some reason Iv'e been feeling lonely, not necessarily romantic wise, but lonely in the sense that there is some kind of void within me. I looked like I was fine in the outside, but inside, I was screaming, with no one to hear me. So I wounded up IMing a few people here on this site, asking about being compassionate and knowing Jesus. I had explained to them that everything…

OVer the past several days, it has been rough for me, but I'm grateful that whenever something bad happens, or when you feel like your not commited or worthy of anything, there is always a chance to be inspired, a chance to feel worthy, a chance to be beautiful. So about the gift.

For the past months, a lot of what I consider to be my closest friends has come out to me as being gay, lesbian, or bisexual. It's hard enough being basterdized by what we like, so I'm grateful…