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Not sure how I even got to day 25, as I've been in such a state of overwhelm. Often it has felt that I'm not doing any giving at all. Despite that, when I think back, I have actually done a lot of giving and life has been getting better.

Somehow I feel more clear, settled and focused, as well as more able to cope. And for that I am very, very grateful.

Day 19, April 18: One of my friends…

Day 12, April 11

Today I gave myself the gift of acting brave and confident, when I really wanted to melt into the background. It was a big accomplishment for me. So often I just want to crawl under a rug. But I made myself “show up and be present”, as they say, and I think it made the people I was meeting with have confidence in me. Speaking of meetings, my receive was that a friend of mine went to the meeting with me instead of going home the way she wanted to. It…

So the reason for the long silence is this: I am feeling stressed and overwhelmed. Just can't seem to get all my ducks in a row. Work, taxes, life...BUT I do know that this will pass. I just need to keep breathing.

Today's gift was to myself. I worked from home because I just could not take the chaos of the office. And even though it was ALMOST as stressful (lunch at 4:00, anyone?), at least I was in my sweats. And for that I was grateful. And every now and then I would look…

Yesterday's gift was buying breakfast for one of my girlfriends. She had not had time to eat before leaving home (sounds all too familiar!!), and needed to tank up before a trip into the city. So we stopped at the local Seven11 and got some vittles. Started the day out right both nutritionally and spiritually, which was a great thing. Today's gift was really to myself --I just took it easy all day. The office was nice and quiet, since most people were out, so I was actually able to get stuff…