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as stated in Day 2, my last Skype conversation with my husband had been very needy, emotional and filled with tears and finger pointing. even though i still feel like many of my feeling were valid, i also know how true and good out love is. so today i really focused on finding the joy in giving - even in a simple way.



today's give was a bit silly - my darling being from another country gets a kick out of some of the American culture. lately he has been highly amused with the fact… Continue

i readily admit that the initial excitement regarding starting this journey has waned today - i just was in a raw emotional state. i know that the upcoming holidays are stirring things up inside - the loss of my Dad this year, being separated from my beloved husband at the moment are the 2 biggies.



i had woke up at 05:30 in the middle of a panic attack and of course Skyped with my love in that super-negatively charged emotional state. so my very first give was a sincere apology to my… Continue

my morning was spent giving my time and muscle to shoveling my parents' sidewalk and digging out both my siblings' snow enveloped cars. afterwards, sent snowy photos to hubby and in-laws overseas - i love to give my darling photos to ease the pain of being apart and i definitely need to do it more often.

this isn't a great beginning, but it is a start... i am very glad to begin this journey.