03/04/09 - 03/10/09

I'm back among the living!

I had a common cold the last days - lying around, coughting, sneezing, bothering my fiance.
The only gifts I could give these days was not be too annoying ^^

In spite of my cold I went to my course on saturday. I thought I was feeling better - wrong decision, I had to stay in bed all sunday.

On monday I promised to help my mum cleaning up and renovate my parents new project, a new coffee shop.
In return for that, I felt terrible on thuesday, so I lay in again the whole day.

But today I feel quite good (I want to say thanks to the good medicine my doctor gave me), so I will meet with my parents and help them again. The coffee shop opening will be next monday - I hope we're finished till then. So much has to be done, but we're a good team.

Yesterday I got a call from my side job colleague - the work I was doing there for years is now done in a different country. While the insurance bureaus in the other federal states are sending this work to another country for months, the bureau I work for always said "no, we're not doing this, we have someone here who takes care for that". But now they got a message from the high management, they HAVE to do that too now.
Well ... great. The personnel manager in my state is very sorry - I'm more efficient, faster and even cheaper than the guys in the neighbour country. But he can't change it.
He tries to find me something else in the firm to do (years ago when I started there, I always changed the bureaus and did different stuff, but in the last years I stayed in 2 bureaus and did the same things there).

Somehow I have the feeling, this is not going to be "my" year.
In february I lost my main job, now I might loose my side job too. I'll work with my parents in their coffee shop as a half time waitress as long as I find sonething new - but this was the plan anyway. The coffee shop job plus the insurance side job, this should keep me up till I find a new, good full time job in a doctors bureau.
Everything is upside down again, I'm really scared. My good energy gets lost with every day, I hope something good comes to me soon (means: a new job). I sent out some applications again, I hope some positive answers will return (*fingers crossed*).