Beginner

I am currently reading Cami Walker's book. I have always felt strongly about giving to others. I gave anonymously to people and some people I lent money to them so one could buy a furnace for her home, another so she could buy a car so she could get to work and others. When I went into a deep depression after my mother's death, I went to Guatemala to work w/ orphans in hopes to pull my self out of my depression and also to use Guatemala as a trial to work w/ the non-profit org that sponsored me--to see if it was a good fit. I wanted to go Africa next. When I returned to the States, I had my stroke. After my stroke, I didn't know why I came back and I didn't know how I could do any good. I have to say, I am lucky...I am mobile and I can take care of myself. Then I started reading Ms. Walker's book and realized I can do small kindnesses. Now I've stopped thinking of the things I can't do and start thinking of the things I can do. This has changed my negative aura I feel around me. This may be a small step but I feel so much better already. Now I look for things to do. I said I am in my third day of giving. I give everyday but this is my third day of conscious giving. One gift I give in a day is designated as my conscious giving. I plan to follow the 29 days prescription but I don't think I will stop at 29 days. O, the one problem I will probably have is doing the meditation. My mind is not good at that and I don't like to sit still but this will be a discipline I will work at. Because I don't want to do it, is probably the reason why I should do it. Much like the exercises I don't like in PT are probably the ones I need to do most. I hope you all are able to enjoy this day. Take Care.