Day 22 and 23... struggling to give

It was interesting receiving an email from 29 Days about giving from obligation and scarcity, has made me stop and think have I been doing that lately? I think so and it stopped me in my tracks the past couple of days. There are some planned gives I have in mind but haven't executed them yet for whatever reason... like making some of my favourite chocolate rum balls that is a family recipe back home in Australia or giving a Toy for Tots or giving away my non-worn wedding dress and previously worn bridesmaid dresses or volunteering at a homeless shelter even. These are things I've been meaning to do just finding the right time to do some of them. I guess no time like the present hey! As NIKE says, 'JUST DO IT!'

I think I do alot of things in order to please that and want it to come from the heart more, which I am sure it does without me knowing. I guess when one is in touch with their heart then they will just give so naturally. Whether it is smiles, money to the homeless etc. That is more my journey at the moment... getting back to my warm heart and smiling within more:-)

I guess I did give yesterday (Day 23) in that I gave a compliment to an auditor I was speaking to in Uruguay, she was concerned her english wasn't very good and so sent an email about it aftewards. I replied back and said she spoke very well actually and to have confidence she is doing really well. That came from the heart:-) I also maybe gave myself a self-give and went to a hot yoga session for the first time (ie Bikram yoga). I have been meaning to do it for some time, finally went and almost passed out from the 100 degree heat they put you through! Afterwards I felt more opened up though and was able to write out my wish list on red paper for the new year and do a small meditation (before falling asleep!)

Day 22... All I remember is that I was planning to have Xmas day with my boss and his family, I actually even told him I would. Then all of a sudden I got an email from this guy I WAS seeing, the one I went on the road trip with. He said we should spend Xmas day together, go to an Asian restaurant, see a movie, do ice skating etc as he really didn't want to do the whole Xmas deal with family etc. I was nearly knocked over by this unexpected request! This is from a guy who a week ago told me he was spending it with maybe his mate or taking his Nana elsewhere. For whatever reason I decided to change my mind and say yes to my friend, even though I would have been just as happy spending it with my boss in a more 'family' situation. Anyway I did it as a good friend, not out of sympathy or obligation, but just because! Is that a real 'give'? I feel I stepped out of myself here, even though I don't know why I really did it to be honest. My boss didn't mind whatsoever and was very accommodating about it thankfully.

HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!