day 5 and day 6

Yesterday was a very busy day and I was going about my business and didn't realize up until late afternoon that I did not consciously do anything close to gifting. However, during our late afternoon Optimist club meeting, I offered to click pictures for the President and helped pack the chairs and clean up at the end. It was getting late and we had an end to end day, but a few extra minutes wouldn't have hurt.

I shared my soymilk with a colleague and offered to stay back a couple of hours at work to wrap a task up for another colleague.

Today I know my friend would have recd the hug(opup card I mailed Thursday), but I have not heard from him. I left him a short VM too, to just check on him, and well, nothing. Yet. I am hoping he would get back to me in some way. Sometimes I worry too much. With certain people I tend to become this way. I am not feeling too good about what I've done, especially coz I have'nt heard back.

This makes me wonder on the whole concept of giving. I do expect something in return, and that's acknowledgment and perhaps the assurance that what I've set out to give has reached well and has had teh desirable effect of warmth and happiness. When time stretches more between the act and the reciprocation, I know something's amiss.

Feel low. Maybe I took liberties I should not have?