Day 9 to 21?

Wow. How can this first cycle be almost over. Over the last few days, I have been trying to be honest and present with those around me. I have noticed that I feel better when I give consciously. Still working on receiving, which I have, but it involves some awareness that if I think I am not deserving, then I think I can't contribute, and then have nothing to give...so its one big circle, and most of the time that I have been giving, I haven't noticed because I am too busy distracted with not feeling worthy. This has been an amazing process. I have invited another long lost friend to lunch for this coming week, called up another last week. At a family event, it seemed we were all in helping mode for my aunt which I am not sure if I started it, or if someone else did, but we really have one of the funnest relaxing times in a while. I have noticed that I need to be able to receive gifts from my mother, and I do not know when or why it started that I couldn't...but its been going on a long long time. Its opened up a new dialogue for us. So far its been really cool.