Day Four and Five- the gift to my brother

We took my brother home yesterday afternoon after taking him out to eat at his favorite restaurant. It was rainy, windy and cold and we all had to bundle up to fight the elements. He would have preferred to stay in his warm bed and spend a few more days with us, if not permanently. In fact he said "why are you getting rid of me, you don't want me anymore?" He just doesn't understand what a big responsibility he is to care for. I have often thought about having him permanently in my home, but I would have to give up my freedom entirely and it wouldn't be fair to me or my husband. Not to mention the physical requirements it takes constantly to care for him. Our pets were scared to death of his wheelchair and we would only see them when he was in bed and his wheelchair was in his room. So rather than feeling good about doing this for him I have to say I felt a bit cheated from his reaction to all the preparation, care and love I gave him while he visited. I know he doesn't know any better and he was taught by our dad and stepmother to expect his needs to be addressed immediately and he wasn't taught to say "thank you"or appreciate what others do for him. Even though I am frustrated, I love my brother so much and will continue to be there for him in every way possible. I guess I'll just have to be satisfied with the efforts that I made, knowing that he was very well cared for and given the opportunity to feel a part of his family. I can't correct any one's behavior or attitude except my own. I won't feel guilty for not doing more. I gave my best and I will feel good about it. I think that for many years I have felt guilty simply because, as twins, he was the one that got the bad deal from birth. Not to be psychoanalytical, but I think alot of my actions stem from knowing how blessed my life has been compared to his. It's not very hard for anyone who lives on this earth to find others who are less fortunate than they are and realize the blessings they have been given. I hope I will be able to give someone a gift today...