I worked most of the day, and when I went out for a walk to clear my head, I received an email from a woman I'm working with, asking if I could help her with a particular software issue. I said yes, went back inside and called her. I wasn't actually able to help her (turns out we're using different versions), but at least the willingness was there.
Then tonight, as I was waiting for the bus, a homeless woman I've seen and helped before approached and asked me for money. I didn't have anything to give her, not even change. I apologized, and as she walked away, I looked her in the eye and said, "If I had money, I would give you some. I don't have any today, but if you see me again, it's okay to ask." She smiled and thanked me. So even though I didn't give her anything, I felt like that was my give for the day.
I have enough to get me through the weekend, and that's it until I get paid (so yeah, that's a bit of a concern). The project that came in yesterday - the one that would have helped bridge the gap - now has been delayed for a few weeks. So I'm back to trusting. I don't know why, in this moment, I feel okay about it (maybe because it was sunny today?), but today, I ate, and today, my cat ate.
I don't know what's happening in the situation with my friend, but tonight, I'm okay with that, too. (Mostly because I'm trying not to think about it.)
I hope you all had great Thursdays. Cheers!