I have fallen off the wagon and am failing (yet again) to complete a round because I am so friggin preoccupied with life. In all truth, I am giving every day, but it's exactly that: everyday giving. Nothing special or out of the ordinary or especially conscious. :-( Boooo. I thought of "cheating" and counting stuff I did without thinking, but that defeats the whole purpose, so I admit it. I suck. I am too busy for my own good. However. . . .
Part of why I am busy is because my super secret project is very very close to completion (or release, more accurately), so when I am not at my regular job or with Bill or trying to keep the laundry done, the dishes washed, litter boxes scooped, dog walked, groceries bought, bills paid, blah blah blah. . . . that is what I am doing. Busy, busy, busy. I thought I was ready to take my focus off of my own affairs, but as this project is a means to an end (finding that elusive "balance" I have long talked about), I guess it's okay to call it self-care and keep going. I was feeling like a loser (this is my third failed round, I think!), but as cheesy as it sounds, the last year (interestingly, since I joined 29 Gifts) has been totally transformative and I am learning that if I don't want to be out straight and manic all the time, I just have to choose not to be. And it's good to "go with the flow" sometimes and be kind to yourself.
So I will be kicking around still, but I think I'm gonna have to ride this wave 'til it breaks. :-)
Much love to you all!
~ e
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