the first blog.

I apologise for the quality of my writing in English......it seems a long time ago that I was on High School.

So, where do I start? Formaly it is day 4 of this 29 day giving challenge....It started on saturday. This weekend I was out of my computer because we went away for the weekend to pack and remove our caravan from the camping, it is almost the end of the summer and our time there is up. The whole month in rained and rained and stormed so forthe wether it is better to leave. We had a horrible drive back to home because of the weather. I'm glad and grateful that all of us are home safely. The whole trip from the coast in Zeeland to our home in Waddinxveen normaly last 1 hour but it took us 3. As it look it's is a goodbye forever from that small place in Zeeland. My 16 year old son and his 14 year old sister, Robbert and Astrid don't want to spend every summer weekend away from home. Okay, I'll understand but saying goodbye is always hurting, for me. We spent the last 10 summers in that same place. What also hurts is that my husband seems relieved about that desiscion. We react so different that sometimes it always seems unbelievable that we are married for so long.

He is recovering from cancer, cured, and it seems that after we heard the most beautiful words in our lives, Congratioulations, it's gone, he lost his strenght. All that year he was so strong, maybe it is logical that there is a day that you lose it. I lost is the first day that he was diagnosed with cancer and recovered after I found out that we have 3 children to take care off. They saved me. I hope he will see that to, that we have so many things to be gratefull for. But it still hurts when he says he did not enjoy our holiday and our weekends this year and that he is finished with our caravan and this place at the beach.

So what was my first give? I think the fact that I didn't argued with him, kept my mouth and worked my ass of to finish it, packed everything, cleaned everything and went home the next day. That Sunday I tried to be understanding, and believe me, it cost all of my strenght.

Yesterday I went to dome my shopping and every time in every shop I kept this giving challenge in my mind. I spent time to be nice, to show intrest and was rewarded with a nice conversation by the butchershop. It made my day. I also bought some very nice cards to sent, without reason, and I'm thinking to send one to my mother and one to my sister in law. They both did everyting they could to support my family.

I realise that we have a long way to go.......just like so many people on this earth. But we are trying!